I just want to know. Everyone is repeating my ideas even my own offspring. People are responding in accordance to my unimplied desires. The level has increased beyond rationality. Events are occuring that defy explanation. I have put up with obnoxious voices for six years and I'm ill of their parlor tricks and personally they are not all that attractive. I passed the point of keeping secrets, so if this is the Matrix or your'e all in on this psychic whatever conspiracy just know that I don't give a **** anymore. There's nothing more you could do but kill me, so go ahead, but I'm not doing it myself.

Sounds like you might have a psychiatric disorder. Seek a entitled doctor who can prescribe some counseling and medication. Your life can be many better than it's now.

See a Dr instantly and ask for treatment for schizophrenia.

You sound like you need some professional help. There must be something really bothering you to make you feel like this. See a councillor; they're usually very useful and can aid you via your difficult times. They might also be able to prescribe some sort of medication for you so that you could be helped more easily.

I feel exactly the same way-events in my life are out of my control but they never just come out and kill me they just want to hurt me

Stuff like this has happened to me before. I'll think about wanting something ...and there it is. I 'll think about somebody I haven't seen...and there they are. I don't know if I think about it because they're on the way...etc...or if somebody in the spirit world is trying to please me..or drive me nuts..or make me depend on them and obtain bonded to them. I know people will try to tell you that this is mental illness. Sometimes it is. Sometimes it's not. Stuff has happened to me that is too "on the mark" to be "imagined". You need to ask somebody who knows how to deal with these things. It can't be wonderful if it's driving you up the wall. Find somebody like Lisa Williams or Sylvia Browne..somebody who will believe you. Maybe if you ignore them..don't give "credit" to them..they will stop. This happened to me many at church. It didn't turn out good, believe me. I cosidered it meant we were all "One in the Holy Spirit".. It happened in dissimilar churches ..not just one. I think some spirit was following me around. I even wrote down my cosidered etc...and the preacher would repeat what I said. I cosidered this was a wonderful thing. But, if you tell the wrong people...they'll think you're mental ..and you probably would be if you don't learn how to deal with it. I believe you. Good Luck.P.S. I THINK YOU SHOULD HAVE GONE TO "RELIGION AND SPIRITUALITY" SECTION FOR THE ANSWER.

Mmmm sounds all so weird! Sorry



I suggest you take a trip to your local spiritualist church and speak with them. They may explain what is happening or if it's a medical issue you need to speak with your doctor. It sounds like you're stressed with this all and paranoid (sorry).



I hope all works out for you, take care of yourself.